What I have discovered in my walk with Christ

1. America has died and or is dying. All we seem to be seeing that is left that looks like America still being alive is the rigamortis setting in.

2. Christians are living for God out of duty and not loyalty(love)

3. People are too illeterate to recognize the demonic second in command Jezebel that is over our nation.(And I am not talking about females at all when I say Jezebel.) Jezebel symbolizes how it is all become about desires and emotions and that your feelings are the spirit of God groaning inside of you.

4. People believe that if you can quote scripture then everything you say is right, and that you are a strong man or woman of God, when in reality head knowledge does not mean anything.

5. People are too afraid to go beyond their borders.

6. Everybody loves being separate and their own boss. Which is blasphemy in the body of Christ.

7. Now a days you can go to a college or apply online or something similar and be anointed, whereas of the old order which is Godly and not worldly, you don’t have to be appointed by men to preach the Gospel

8. It has all become about the outside of the cup and not the inside of the cup which is dirty thus defiling the entire cup. That’s what all relegion is about, the outside of the cup. I have been able to sum up all religions into that one sentence. They are all about outward works and outward righteousness. They do not point to the inside of the human heart at all. They all say do this and you are safe. (true Christianity is not a relegion.)

9. I really see no strength in my age group or generation. Where are the men and women of God, TRUE men and women of God. Remember it is not about the outside of the cup that makes it clean or dirty it is about the inside. True men and women of God are those who radiate the character of Christ through their lives and who they are.

10. Where are the truly suffering who have joy. Who have been through as deep as hell can get on earth for a Christian living in this generation.

11. No one seems to be suffering. No sacrifice and yet they receive reward. God calls that that the sacrifice of fools. When one brings nothing before God. When they have to sacrifice nothing to bring something to Holy God. Which is actually no sacrifice at all.

Brooding the beauty of poverty

As yes you heard me, the beauty of poverty, or being in poverty. Though it is not Gods will for His children and His elect to suffer and not have what they need to further their lives and bring some much much much more to His glory and His fame and His name. He still teaches us amongst the dire of situations that we probably have brought upon ourselves for God loves us so much that He lets us screw up each others lives so that we being against one another can bring one another to each others end and finally see what God has been trying to show us all along and how He has been trying to change us into His likeness, which is the best thing for us. So He DOES have the right intentions and plans for us. Even if it means us suffering and being alone. He will help us to become strong and the like, and sometimes when we ask it of Him we do not know what we are asking and because at the same time our heart is pure in asking it of Him, He puts us through the fires and the forging that is painful. If only we could see it long down the road, but yet we are human which equals imperfectness which equals illiteracy in seeing the better in every situation and how each is connected so intricately to further the next one and so on to our benefit and for Glory to God. Well anyways I have looked upon all of my life up to this point and have realized why God has me here, within the poverty that I am in. I have asked Him to make me strong and the like, to make me truly changed, and He has and yet I could not see it and have whinned and whinned. Of coarse unlike most if not all who whine about their life when they actually have it awesome, I do not. I have it about, well lets just say it in a nice way. No I’m just kidding, I really do have it bad. But really I am able to see God and hear Him ever so clearly. So I am actually so thankful for this hole that I am in.

And you know what, I have no regrets about my life. I would not have changed anything. Had I been able to, I would have never have learned an instrument and played it so well. I would have never had an awesome relationship with God and my mother. I would never have truly learned the depths of love and just being around someone is enough. I would not feel deeply the way that I feel the truth of things. I would not be able to see the real truths behind peoples fake masks. I would not be able to passionately live. Had I a different life I would not be thankful for all that I have and I would want more and more. I would have never learned how to be satisfied. I would be like everyone else with their boring square haircuts. I would not be able truly love and love deeply. I would be so carnally minded.

YES! THAT IS THE TRUE BEAUTY OF BEING POVERTY! Because you really have nothing, everything has value and so much value. Just looking out upon a green field, an incredible sky. Not having to be dependant upon people to be happy, but dependant upon God to be happy. The ones who have little and humble themselves in the midst of it are the ones who are the prayer warriors. Those who have little if not any friends, those who have been put through the fires, that meaning that they have lost loved ones o so close to them, lost friends, have been betrayed by their close friends, have come close to dying, have seen the very faces of demons.

Yes poverty brings out the beauty in a person and brings out the beauty of all others around them. It brings us to our knees to see what truly matters.

And THAT is why I have no regrets in my life. Truly... No regrets. Everything up to this point in my life has furthered me, even I did not have the Godly wisdom to see it, and even I intentionally abandoned the Godly reasoning because it did not always make me feel good.

Thank you, all of you in my life who have let me down, thank you all of you who have hurt me and have stuck daggers in my back in the form of words, permanently leaving scars and unhealable wounds that only God can heal and has healed. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Brooding a certain amount of Sundays ago

I was just really brooding about how there is so much devorce within the Churches and the like. How so many covenants were and are and have been broken. SO much pain and suffering over petty squables imbraced thus breaking up covenants. This is absolutely demonic and the like. And then I remember that Sunday, it was pastor appreciation day and my current pastor also brought up a lot of his staff, I think. Well elts just say that they were people who helped out the church. It amazed me the one indiviual who was up there. You see I come from a broken home as well. My father was taken from me when I was about ten years old. What I mean by that is that he died from cancer in prison. My intire frikken life I had not father neither did I have really a memory of him. Its like I was supposed to care for him when I had no relationship with him. I am not mad at him. But back to my point. Now I was just really dissapointed and angry because on pastor appreciation week on Sunday they had an individual who had never been devorced who is happily married up there getting thanks for heading up a class for devorced people. How horrid. How frikken horrid and just disgusting for someone who had never been devorced to be heading a class for and that hlped out devorced people. Do they even know the consequences of doing and promoting such stupidity. What is wrong with people. I really wanted to go up there and give the pastor a piece of my mind. He has no right doing that. Its like applauding a crippled person for walking when that criplle person is still sitting down and has never gotten up and walked in his entire life. How can people be this ablivious. This also reminds me of in the past when ths stupid youth pastor got up on stage comming from a family g=home where his mother and father were happily married and yet he preached on the father wound and even criticized people who got mad at God because they had not father. The stupidity of people in the church amazes me. I imagine that our stupidity takes Gods breathe away as us being in awe of Him takes our breathe away. Al I am really saying is that a person cannot have an effect and effectively confort others when they have not gone through the journey themselves. I fat preacher cannot and does not the authority to combat against and properly apply the Word of God against abesity. Just like an undevorced person cannot come against devorce and apply God Word against it. ALL THEY CAN OFFER IS HEAD KNOWLEDGE.

But you see, the way it is now in church, is that if you have all the head knowledge, then you are annointed, rahter then if you are annointed, then you are annointed. It is no longer about actually being annointed, just looking like you are annointed. Actually Skillet, my favorite band, wrote a song about it, "You shookthe preachers hand, but your smile cant hide your sin... Your eyes tell me what you feel, your eyes tell me what is real."

Inclosing, I will say this to A WARRIOR CANNOT PROPERLY FIGHT WHAT HE DOES NOT SEE OR UNDERSTAND. HE CAN ONLY GUARD AGAINST IT. HE CANNOT GO ON THE OFFENSIVE, AND DEFEAT IT.

In the words of Jack Black, "Your not hardcore, Cause you've not lived hardcore." When you live with someone you can understand them know them, when you only see them, you cannot become intimate with them, share with tme suffer with them, know their pains and the like.

Please understand this everyone.

The answer to screaming Penticostals

The spirit of jezebel is the spirit of rebellion. The spirit of rebellion is THE reason why the western Chruch is not moving out in power. Rebellion is having your own agenda over God's agenda. THAT is why the western Chruch isn't moving in power. THAT is why the eastern Churches ARE moving in power and seeing the dead raised daily. Because their only cry is Jesus Christ. They are not seeking revival, they are seeking God, and revival has come and further much deeper revival is comming for the eastern Chruches.
The western Chruches are infested with the jezebel spirit, meaning the spirit of rebellion. When we stop thinking of our own agendas, our will, and our own lives. Then the spirit of jezebel, which is the spirit of rebellion, will leave. WE WILL THEN HAVE THE HARVEST AND THE REVIVAL. Even though there is personal revival, meaning that you are constantly being conformed and transformed into His likeness,( becomming more like Jesus Christ.) What I am talking about meaning HARVEST and REVIVAL, is an outpouring.

Brooding A revelation of grace

This blog is one that God spoke to me about when I first started going to Pursuit 2:22

Jesus Christ IS grace. All other extensions of grace are the manifestations of Jesus Christ. We are the manifestations of grace. For we mirror Jesus Christ to human hearts and Jesus Christ is grace.
Jesus Christ is the ultimate grace and charity. For through Christ we go to the Father, which is THE ultimate reward and destination.
Jesus Christ is truth. Therefore truth is an extension of gracce. For truth is Jesus Christ, and Jesus Christ is grace. All that HE extended was different manifestations of grace. For He is grace.
Jesus christ is the grace of the Father.

I was working today along side my mother at the local Chinese resturaunt and God really started speaking to me about how our culture has become stupified and just has gone down the tubes. I have noticed how 90 percent of people when ordering their meals order Diet Coke rather then Coke a Cola. Though they may just like the taste better and perhaps it is just that way, it really opened up my mind to the way this culture is. So I am goin to say this:

Diet Coke symbolizes how everyone doesnt want the real thing. That they just want a quick fix. That they just want a tase and are not intense enough to experience the true reality. That is the Real Coke a Cola. Thay just want a derivative of the original model. They just want a microwave lifestyle, they do not want to truly live and the like. They do not want sacrifice anything to gain reward which is the law of all the universe and the Kingdom of God which governs the universe and realit itself. Its just like in the Bible where the temple had money changers within who already had sacrifices ready and were selling them to those who had traveled for miles and miles with their own sacrifice upon their backs laboring ever until they met with God in the temple. This is the famous instant in the Bible where Jesus by himself created a whip and drove the money changers out of the temple. The truth was that the money changers were providing the sacrifieces already for the people there. God does not accept the sacrifice of fools which is no sacrifice at all. Just like David said, "I will not sacrifice that which costs me nothing." This is what sacrifice was, it is waht cost someone something. The sacrifice of fools can be manifested within many things. For instance, thinking that your emotions can please God, that emotionalism means that you are feeling the touch of God. The sacrifice of fools is a sacrifice of the flesh, basically buying the sacrifices at the temple, without any effort on their own part, without any sacrifice at all. This is what most of the American church is doing and it is why the church is in the sad state that it is in. Essentially the manly church of the God that God was pleased with has been killed by Jezebel. I will put it this way. What I mean is that men and women are different. This is also why there is so much devorce within the church and the world. Men are visually based, women are emotionally based. So when I say that the manly church has been killed off, I mean that the way the church is now reflects the way that a woman is based. Also women are rebellous. Why do you think that the Bible calls the church "she." It does not say "He" or "It." I do not like saying this because it makes me sound sexist to an unrenewed mind who does not see the obvious of how this once great nation has fallen, because of the church falling. Whether you like it or not the church shapes the face of the world. If there is rebellion and evil within, the world will be shaped by that. God does not start with the Gentiles, He starts with the Jews. Meaning that God does not come against everyone else and then the church. He comes against the church and then the world. ( I wonder when people will understand that truth.)Luckily all of the old covenant was fulfilled and done away with and now everyone is equal, thank you Jesus! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!!!

Well anyways I kind of got off track, but not in a bad way. ANd just to let you know I am not bashing women. I love them so. They are so precious to me and beautiful. But at the same time I do not sit idly by and let evil run amuck. I speak against it and I hope for the better and pray for the better. I dont just sit there whinning. When I see something about it I do something about it. Even I cannot, I ask and plead ot the One who can do something. What I was saying is that the world does ot desire to have reality. They desire to just have a small taste of something that is good. Of something that could be good but is not. Of what was but only for a second.

Brooding yet again

This another blog that I did not write right now but it is something I wrote under listening to God speak. Most of the time it is in my own voice in my spirit. Cant truly describe it but He speaks mysteries to me that I cannot grasp on my own, things that spiritually illeterate people cannot grasp. I do not say illeterate in a insulting way but in an honest way. Well anyways I was just thinking deeply again one day about everything and how if you piece it together you can figure out people and the meanings of why things happen and why thye happen to people. Why others hurt one another. Why so much bad things happen that do not seem to make sense. Oh and by the wya if you are wondering what the word "brooding" means it means deeply thinking to the point of possible stress being induced upon ones self. So wheneve I use the word "brooding" as one of my blog titles you will kow what it means.


Everything within this life and the next is connected. Everything in this life is connected. Though the understanding required to know is hard to grasp sometimes for most human minds. Even if it is the most trivial thing that seems the least important, it is still connected. Even if the most trivial thing has the most complicated meaning behind it in able to learn that it is connected; It is still connected.
Everything the we do or own is a manifestation of who we are and what makes up our personality. It is a way that shows others who we are, though others will probably never recognize it.
You can gain nothing without sacrifice. Everything that we do is a result of choice, even if we are unaware that it is. We are responsible for what we do. Everything that happens has a meaning behind it, no matter how insignificant that thing may be. There may even be the most complex reason behind the most trivial and uneventful event, and yet there is still a reason for it happening. Few may come to this revelation and yet because of how long they have been living the lies, they will never be able to change, despite the fact that they have been enlightened.

Brooding Glory of the new Covenant

I thought this an appropriate blog. I was up one night. Lack of sleep deprevation caused and brought me into deep thought. So i decided to write down what God was speaking to me.

What Jesus came to do and what He did do was tear down the old way. The old way was stained with the curse of the law and the like. It was stained with the absence of the indwelling of the Holy Spirit, no true dwelling place for God to enter man and recreate man into a new species. Thus man could not truly escape his nature, the blood that flowed through man under the father of man, the world. A child gets all of his blood from his father. Thus before Jesus came and brought forth the new order, that is the indwelling of the Holy Spirit that could dwell in man and change man and give man righteousness through grace, man was still getting his blood from the world. Man was still a part of this world. The old covenant could not atone for sin, it just satisfied and pacified sin and held it back, it did not at all atone for sin and get rid of it, the wrath of God was not satisfied at all in any way .This old way was cut down. It was no longer about flesh and blood, right of birth along with status and if you were Jewish. The meaning of being a Jew would also be trans-mutated. (The Alchemy of God) As well as Israel itself. (What I mean by Israel is that Israel represents the dwelling place of Gods people on earth. Israel is not in rock and stone, it is the people of God, His church, that is the body of Christ upon the earth.) Now since the old way, the old man as it may be called was killed. Birth right, flesh and blood as well as the letter of the law was rendered void. Finally Gods people could have a dwelling with God and God could have a dwelling with man, within each other. The New Covenant did away with the law, the Law of Moses which was for sinners and not grace given Christians. John the Baptists' ministry was of repentance. Jesus' ministry was of grace. The old way, the Law of Moses was for sin and the righteousness of Jesus was for the saved, His chosen elect, those who were and are called by the destiny of God.

I wonder says I?

Tis this be one upon the various many upon many of blogs I have yet to post upon blogspot. Wel to start off just in case anyone will read this blog at all let me tell you about myself yet just a little. I am, Hmm?How do I say it... I am an eractic person. Eratic as in I like various thing that are not connected together. I do not embrace fads. I think they are fruitless, like the Iphone fad and the Ipod fad when there are truly better mobile devices upon the market. For example my own Pocket PC. It is absolutely amazing where as the Iphone and Ipod are just for entertainment purposes. Thats what I mean. I have the most bizare taste in musical styles. I basically like anything that is from the heart and that is done with percision, skill, soul, and ones heart. I amd a passionate Ocarina player. It is THE most ingenious Flute ever made. I love Classical Guitar and wail upon my Classical Guitar. I dont just pet the strings, I wail upon, for I am not affraid of my Guitar, it is my possession and I am not its possession. I also have a hand made Esteban Guitar which I have never in all of my journeys played a better Guitar. Just the clarity on it is top notch. I am passionate about swords and since me learning about them has brought me closer to my God who IS REAL and not just confirmed by my emotions and the like, unlike alot of so called Christians. Seriously, love is amazing, it is something that if a person was stripped of their arms and legs could still love. Of coarse I am not against emotions, just people saying that whatever they feel is God, thats what I mean.

Well anyways I do look forward to the rest of my future times upon this site.

May fair winds be with you.